Who in thier right mind would have ever believed that Maggi, me, ( formerly 497 lbs) me.....would ever be a student of the National Academy of Sports Medicine???? Yeah, you read that right. After several degrees, in various things, at 15 years of age ( yeah 39) I finally figured out what I want to do professionally in my life. I am going to be a ( Read more... )

Today I feel like I have fallen off a horse and am having a hard time wanting to get back into the saddle ( Read more... )

We went to the zoo today and I had a great time. Being outdoors and moving are 2/3 best solutions for my depression. I got to pet and feed goats. That always makes me happy. I also got to feed GIANT fish, by attempting to throw the food into their mouths. That was challenging and made me smile ( Read more... )

I have been thinking all day about what I should write about in my journal today. Truth is I just feel empty and numb. That sounds bad, but I am not so sure it is. I have plenty rolling around in my head. Things about training, past relationships, BDSM, the kids I work with, the situation with my neice, how everyone needs a part of me but I feel ( Read more... )

Well, I am of the belief that people should not complain without offering some semblance of a solution. As I said this morning I believe in making changes rather than excuses. I said I would fix the issues and lack of self discipline this week. I have come up with a plan of action that establishes some accountability for myself. I operate best with ( Read more... )

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Do you ever feel like you are just putting your words out there into the universe never to be seen or heard from by anyone ( Read more... )

Day 27 ? What�s the best thing going for you right now?

I think the best thing going for me right now is my renewed determination and belief in myself where my weightloss and quest for better health is concerned. I have set a couple new challenging somewhat short term goals and each day I get healthier; mentally, physically, and emotionally. I ( Read more... )

This was my facebook post tonight:I think I am finally after nearly a year a half learning to push myself physically...In the workout dept. I mean.

2 years ago I couldnt walk through the fair. Today I hiked 17 miles through mountainous terrain. According to calorie count I burned more than 5000 calories doing this. I had a ravenous appetite when I was finished...no wonder. I hurt so bad and ache in muscles I didnt even know existed. It feels great to be alive. I am so proud of myself!

Maggi